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| so i got my tarrot cards and palm read yesterday, between both of them they said i had "hands of gold" that i am going to be, or are meant to be successfull at everything i do, and im going to be very spoiled as an adult, (but not in a bad way) also, i am meant to be the father of 3 children, i am meant to have a long and great life.
aparently someone whom i was close with that died is trying to come to me in dreams but im not letting them, if i let them, they will pass their luck on to me, i think this might be my grandfather on my moms side, though i wasn't that incredably close with him he had, for the most part what i want, i guess.
also another person that i am close with, or that is special to me (later revealed to be a cirtain girl in the card reading) will return to me around 6 months from now.
when I'm like 24 someone will return from my past (that i never really lost contact with compleatly), and thats the person that im meant to be with.
im soposed to do something really big or good in my lifetime that will help alot of people, and i will be really successful at it or with it or what ever. She said she saw me as a lawyer or a doctor or something, which is weird because i've always considered being a lawyer becuase i love to argue, and i think that, when judged be a third party i am extreemly good at it (though the other person becomes frustrated many times becuase i am so agressive) but thats not really what i want to do with my life so i saw it as makeing something like an invention that will help people, this has long been something that i have wanted and aspired to do. paticularly i thought i would make some kind of invention that would fix a problem in the body for people, im not sure what yet though. I've also kinda felt, or maybe just hoped that the invention would be how i was going to make my fortune, and then i could use the "easy money" to make even more things or employ people to do it, or just do something great with the money that doesnt include keeping it becuase i would get greedy mad quick. though she didnt say anything about me being greedy (all that was speculation after lawyer)
the lawyer thing also came from her seeing that i am meant to be out spoken, or loud, i am meant to stick out and be different and to get my opinion out there as much as i can. but she said that im not like that, and the vibes that she was getting from me pointed in the opposite direction and that i should try to be more out spoken. opon talking to juan about this he said "ya you definitly seem like the person that will keep to them selfs alot, but when your confronted with something you would just go all out to prove your point or opinion" obviously not in those EXACT words but extremly close, and ya i guess thats true, i do somewhat keep my opinions to my self, upon pondering why i decided that for the most part i do it to try and make peoples lives easier. however when im confronted about an issue that i care about, or especialy when someone mistakes an opinion for fact, i do indeed feel the strongest urge to make my opinion known, or to atleast point out the flaws in what they are saying. not that i just shoot down everything i dont agree with, becuase i dont, or atleast i hope i dont, and if i do im sorry. (but i really think i don't, i like to think i provide logical arguments to people that are ignorant of important facts or thought processes)
any way so before juan said that i was like hmm maybe i should be more out spoken, and not so much after but i guess I'm going to start voiceing my opinion more, im not sure if this is a good thing but i think it feels good.
oh and the girl thats soposed to be coming back to me in 6 months is being held back (she said by a friend or something that doesnt want to see us happy together, and that might like me or try to hit on me) but i really dont know too many of the friends actualy bearly any, and only about 2 of which i actualy know and have talked to, and actualy know me that is, of the girl that i picked, i thought i might have picked the wrong girl, but opon consulting mike he said that which ever one i picked is probably right "because thats like my subconsious telling me stuff" i dont know
oh and she has two love intrests in her life, which i told the lady, but aparently it showed up on the cards two becasue the charriot was being drawn by two horses.
my card was faced twards her, meaning that im soposed to draw near to her,
i picked up both of the cards with one hand when my eyes were closed to flip them so that means that we are meant to be together
and finaly, something i just remembered the laydy said my cup (meaning like my spiritual health or mood or happiness) would be filled and then tiped and then filled and then tipped, she asked if something was going on in my family adn asked if my parents were divorced, she asked me if i could think of any reason that my cup would be tiped over and over again untill later in my life. i had absolutly no idea becuase nothing really is happening in my family right now that could do that but whats really weird is that i just made a connection. when i came home that night iwas in a wonderfull mood from hanging out with my friends and my mom just ruined it. i wrote in my jurnal that i keep of everytimg my mom does something to me that i dont like.
I dont do this to be mean or like to rant or to remanis on things that bother me. it started as a way to record things i didnt like becusae i have been to counsolors and mediators in my life time, and i have noticed that no matter what the situation, from when i was as little as possible when ever the counsoler, mediator, or teacher would ask me what people were doing to me that makes me upset (if it wasnt a spacific one time event) i would have no example of what bothers me, though i knew what it was i would have no clear example. my explaination is that my mind simply chooses not to remember becuase there is no reason to remember things that bug you, it provides no advantage for any type of activity that i do) so the jurnal started as a way to record things that she does so i dont have to look like a morron if we ever go to a counsuler. and now mostly its like a therapy, becuase i can't scream at my parents for what they do because they just get more mad (and i mean more not in a way thats insinuates they are already mad at me but just becuase they are always mad in geneeral) and im not just saying that, my friends can back me up, they have never seen my parents happy, though i think mike has seen my father in a good mood. and that segways me into my main point.
My cup getting tipped over is when im in a good mood, and i come home or my mom or dad comes home, then i just drop into a horrible mood becuase they are alwyas in a horrible mood.
I think there are two reasons why i didnt catch that at the sphycic reading lady. reason one is because i was thinking like the cup filling up over a long period of time and then being tipped like over a year or a few months, like geting a girl and then loosing her, and i could think of no such repeating instance.(but not with a girl becuase it was probably family related)
reason two is that i was looking for a recent change in my life that would trigger that, when she said is anything happening in your family right now, i tryed to think of something that happend recently that would make my cup tip alot. i could think of lots of crap thats going on in my family becusae every one is trying to get every one eles money... except the people i like... like my cousin. and so, it really doesnt effect me personaly and my cup that much becuase im just like what ev, but i soposed thats often the reason why my parents are in a bad mood, so i guess it does effect me. but the point is that reason number two is that i was looking for a change in my family when really nothing has changed, and thats the problem, its that my parents never change, and are always in a bad mood, which effects my mood in a bad way effectivly "tipping my cup"
So there you have it i dont really remember to much else.
oh and just for you critics out there that dont believe in this stuff (not saying that i do) its not like she says these things to every one, mike got one the same day and she was like your life is going to be full of bad crap you cant controll and your going to have to make the best of it, so its not like she tells every one they are going to have a great life. Just trying to add a little defense for the critics... and that is all.
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| well this just sucks, i cant get to sleep at all, and its about 5:00 which means i wake up in about an hour, so its pretty much pointless to keep trying to fall asleep.... becuase then i will be just more tired. -.-'
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| lol i haven't writen in this for a while but as for new news,
i bought WWW.TheFatWoman.com
w00t
finals are this week and today is the last day, then we switch classes so i cant sleep i any more becusae i will have a first period...
uh.... i think thats about it.
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| The first installment of In The Life of A Man is now vailable at LifeOfaMan.2ya.com
coming soon: frank experements.
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| w00tness!!!! last night i bought http://TheFatWoman.com !!! i thought domain naims were so much more expensive like 5$ a month or something... maybe even 10 but i found this one and scored it for $20 a YEAR at http://2ya.com
and it has some decent features... nothing incredable but usefull none the less it isnt some striped down crapy service... has email forwarding, masking, submiting, and stuff its pretty cool. of course it doesnt include a server just forwarding to a different domain, but still its pretty sweet
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